ell, it’s 1996, she’s twenty-four, he’s thirty already, and she’s coming into her own musically, though the drugs and alcohol will keep her scared for the rest of her life. They’re living in an abandoned farm house in South Carolina, and between her freakouts and his dark nature, things eventually end. She may never have gotten over this brief period as the references cloud on later albums, his name popping up in her influences. All that’s left is the years he was without her, and the best albums of his career were the two after she came and went.
In a few years, somewhere in San Francisco, another girl’s sharing a room with someone new, their shared possessions and instruments and books litter the floor. They know that after a time, distance and other things might drive them apart, but for now they’re just waiting. He records and releases a few exploratory EP’s as well as her first album, and she is catipulted to fame while he continues to make a name for himself, producing and supporting others. Years later, when she’s walking around New York, she hears a slow sweet strain of song and wonders if he ever thinks of her, because you certainly can’t erase two years, and surely it all meant something more than she even knows.
He never thinks of her.
Soon enough she meets someone new through her label, and he’s older, and interesting. Older men are always interesting. Her parents didn’t much like her dating someone almost twice as old as her, but these things aren’t usually up for discussion. Intense and musically full, they play together on albums and on the road, she’s already more popular than he ever was, though he’s a better musician. Now and then he would wonder, as he watched her play, how do I end up with these women, young and talented. Now and then he runs into the scared girl, or hears her songs at a party, and knows that she thinks of him. This new girl is just as young as the other one was a decade ago, just as bright and impetuous, just as impossible. He laughs and laughs, as one night he thinks history has repeated itself and she walks away for the last time.
After all this time, yet again she’s with someone new, girls like her don’t like to be alone for too long. Finally, someone more famous than me, she thinks to herself on New Year’s Eve, of course one can’t admit these things, but maybe now the fights will stop. Besides, he’s not even a musician, but he does make her laugh.